How come no one told me it was going to be days like this ? How come no one told me that I would feel sad at times because I don't have money or that I wouldn't be able to do everything I want to do when I want to do it ? How come no one said that my parents "really didn't have it all," although I thought that they did. How come no one told me that it would be the hardest learning curve and experience of my life. How come I had to prepare by falling on my face; how come I haven't failed yet.
I am wonderfully amazed at my ability to survive, live and recoup as an adult. I am amazed at my ability to be flexible and sacrifice for my families needs. It is amazing how you are able to adjust and move forward even when you didn't know you could. It is interesting that you learn so much for words not said but actions taken by others.
Adulting is a thing. It is a way of being. It is an experience. It is a way of thinking. It is what the universe requests of us ... what we do with that responsibility is our ; however, it doesn't always feel like much.
The one thing that has kept me afloat is my determination. I am determined to get it right (whatever that means), I am determined to take care of myself and my family, I am determined to love and experience the love the earth has to offer and I am determined to have no regrets.
Adulting gives me the opportunity to remember that this is an opportunity for me learn to LIVE.